Nicholas J Graham

“Groundhog Day” revisited

You know the movie “Groundhog Day” with Bill Murray?  Well, in a way, I was thinking that living with daily pain is kinda like that.  I wake up each day and think to myself “Ahh, today it will be better and I will feel like a normal person today”.  But then of course my shoulders and waist burn, my torso and arms are extremely tight from the scleroderma, my eyes burn and I squint and walk half-blindly to the bathroom with the boys hanging on me, and so on…. Ah, another day!

It seems that I am stuck in this cyclical life of get up, deal with the issues of discomfort so I can function, feel good enough until about 3 or 4 pm and then the aches, pains, tightness, and burning set in again.

I am back to stretching again with weights, an excercise ball, yoga, the “Thumper” (a wonderful handheld electric massager with 2 large “thumpers”), drinking more water and all the rest of it.  In fact, I took the boys and a neighbor girl to the river for a walk today.  Felt great to get out and walk among the trees and river. Katie took the BMW and went shopping!

Anyway, I know there are a lot of you out there that feel the same; that everyday seems to not be noticeable better than the previous one.  Each day seems like another version of the day before and in a way is kinda like a living hell on earth! (Well, I say that, but the moments in between the pain are nice and I can enjoy them).

Well, the troops just came in and I dinner must be made, kids tended to, and the rest of it . . .  . . .  Life just kinda happens you know. Look! Here it comes again!